User blog comment:MusicManiac12323/iLost My Mind through the eyes of a Creddier/@comment-3487510-20110815060340

Thank you soo much for writing this for Creddiers, I agree with every word of it. I too am not mad/angry. Just sad. Actually I'm having mixed feelings and it's not only making me sad, it's confusing me. It feels weird because I've never felt this way about an iCarly episode before.

In the past I've said that I have a lot more important things than iCarly in my life. What's Seddie and Creddie? But the truth is, after seeing iLost My Mind, I feel as if I had lost a great friend.

SO many people loved this episode. Seddie fans all over the internet are rejoicing, Dan's getting numerous praise, it just feels like the world is happy, all but me.

What disturbed me most was how Carly acted. There's no way around it. That girl loves Seddie. It made me feel terrible to see her that happy and supportive of her friends (okay that sounded awful. I didn't mean it that way....). It's as if iSaved Your Life never happened.

iSaved Your Life is/was the episode that ended with a promise that was never kept. I felt cheated. Erased from history. Like it was all a game.

I actually felt really upset to the point of tears about 5 minutes after the episode ended (silly...iCarly's just a TV program...). But I didn't cry. I quickly recovered and went to go be by myself for awhile. In around 20 or 30 minutes I was back to normal. I accepted that Seddie had happened. But I was still bummed.

Now I'm a real sucker for love/hate relationships and I truthfully 'LOVE Seddie, but after seeing iLost My Mind, I felt as if the energy was sucked out of me. Here Seddie was, happening; while Creddie lay in the dust, unresolved and uncared for. My love for Seddie quickly drained away and I felt empty.

But then I thought about it more, and I realized that I shouldn't feel this way. This arc has three more episodes to go, and I'm ready for it. I can't say that Dan cheated or lied until I've seen the whole thing and only then can I judge whether he has really forgotten his Creddie shippers.

But don't get me wrong. I'm not expecting anything Creddie to happen (at least, not anytime soon). What I am seeking from this arc is some sort of closure. I want iSaved Your Life to be talked about. I want iSpeed Date to be touched upon (Now that I think about it, iSD isn't really that important of an issue. All Carly and Freddie did was dance it pretty much was just to show that Sam had feelings for Freddie). I want something to prove to me that Creddie was once real and that all this time I haven't shipped it in vain. That it was never a lie. That there was once a ship called Creddie and that it was once alive.

I feel as if Creddie doesn't matter. Never mattered. As if Creddie was just a stepping stone for Seddie to happen. As if Dan messed with out feelings just to lift up his more superior fans (Seddie shippers). And you Seddiers if you're reading this, don't misunderstand me. I don't think Seddie happened just to please you guys. Maybe Dan just loves Seddie. And I'm okay with that. But I'm not okay with the way Creddiers have been tricked. We were given a promise that was never kept. That hurt me.

That episode seriously messed with my feelings so that even now two days later I still feel kind of drained as if I've lost something precious to me. Creddie was my childhood. I felt like it was over. And I still feel like it is. It's pretty safe for me to say that I have zero Creddie hope left.

Don't misunderstand, I still love Creddie as much as I always did and always will, but I have no expectations for Creddie in the future of iCarly. I don't think I'll ever be satisfied with an iCarly ship at this point. I still love Seddie and Creddie more than I ever have, I just feel like something is missing from both ships.

I watched iLost My Mind twice more, and just like the first time, I enjoyed the humor that was unlike any episode in season 4. Season 5 is really good so far and watching iLMM over I could appreciate the humor more knowing even that Seddie was going to happen.

The episode was really funny. Jim Parsons was hilarious. On a humoristic level it was probably my favorite episode. It actually had me laughing so hard I forgot about Creddie and Seddie for somewhere between 3 and 7 minutes xD

Anyway. I'm a lot less depressed, but a lot more sad now. Not to bum us Creddiers out anymore, but I don't think Creddie's gonna happen. Carly was happier than she ever was seeing Sam and Freddie kiss and all that and that really broke me. I just can't see Carly and Freddie with a future. I'm sorry :/

Thanks again for writing this. I'm going to go to bed now cause it's like almost 2 A.M. But I just thought I'd see how my Creddiers are holding up. If any of you guys still believe in Creddie, I'm happy for you. And a little envious lol. I feel like a grown up who has stopped believing in fairies or something xD

And for the Creddiers who, like me, have stopped believing... be strong guys. I'm really trying hard to be too :)