User blog comment:Random Confessor/Anonymous Confessions/@comment-4654489-20111213035903

Wow. This is really cool. For starters...I'm grateful to have something like this to get my feelings out, so thank you for making this.

In my group of friends, I'm usually the one that acts like a crazed weirdo (mostly for the humor of others). I'm usually the one that gets made fun of (fully joking, of course, and I don't mind) by the others. I'm the one that entertains them, I guess you could say. Also, they come to me for their problems and I usually act as the disagreement solver. However, sometimes I feel like nobody acknowledges my problems. It's hardly anyone else's fault, though. I hardly let anyone see my real side. My side that houses all my fears and things that just make me sad and stuff. I don't really wanna get all emotional on this...but it's anonymous, so hey.

Another thing...I have been raised in a strongly Catholic family and nobody in it knows that I'm not sure what to believe in anymore. I can't say I'm an atheist. I'm just...open to possibilities. I want to tell someone, but I can't bring myself to.

Recently, there have been so many things I don't feel comfortable telling to anyone except on this Wiki. I feel like I've been lying to people in my life more, and I don't like it. And it feels like I am not comfortable to tell anyone in my life my personal issues.

It bothers me that people in my school are so open about whom they like, and how practically everyone's dating someone. I kept telling myself-and others-that I don't feel anything for anyone. But there is someone I've known since sixth grade, and I can't stop thinking about him. He's kind of my friend. Which leads me to another point. Whenever I'm around him, I act like a freak. I think I weird him out...I weird a lot of people out, actually. I can't even keep track of how many times I've been told I'm weird. However, I've always thought of it as a compliment. But around him, everything changes. Nobody knows I like him. Urgh, I sound like a lovesick loser.

Recently, I haven't been getting enough sleep. Like, 4-5 hours. School hasn't been going as well as it usually has. Or rather, my grades. School was never good. I just wish teachers could get it in their thick skull that TEENAGERS HAVE FREAKING LIVES BESIDES DOING SLAVEWORK FOR YOU.

Kthnxbai