Talk:ILost My Mind/@comment-4135215-20110817221438

I've watched the final scene about a dozen times now, and I've had a thought about Sam's reaction to Freddie's kiss. At first, I was disappointed in her reaction, b/c it seemed hestitant and anticlimactic. But as I've watched it again (and again), I realize that it's not at all that she's hesitant or anticlimactic, it far more realistic than I was expecting. Sam has been operating this whole time thinking that Freddie would NEVER like her/want to be with her/etc. She let her guard down and allowed herself to be vulnerable when she kissed him in iOMG, and since then she's been building that wall back up, just like she has her whole life. She's preparing herself for what she feels is the inevitable next step--rejection from Freddie. I think it's important to note that Freddie kisses her in the middle of her tirade about how it was his chance to humiliate her and get back at her for everything she'd done to him over the years. He surprised her with a kiss just like she did in iOMG. Sam's reaction is completely in line with her character... she has operated her entire life behind her "wall," not letting anyone in, afraid to be vulnerable. She didn't expect Freddie to feel the same way. So, I now read her reaction as far more appropriate to her character, in that she is still being guarded, and in something of a state of disbelief. Her comment, "So now what?" is really as much to herself more than to Freddie (at least, I read it that way), b/c she never expected for this to happen, and she's never really allowed herself to be happy, she's always been more concerned with not being vulnerable and not letting herself get hurt, etc, so even though she is happy and excited to be with Freddie, she is just flat-out confused, and has no idea what she is supposed to do next or how to act now. It's unfamiliar territory for her, and though she is excited and happy, she's also a little scared.

Maybe I'm reading too much into it (on this wiki? Surely not!), but Sam has always struck me as an incredibly complex character, and Jennette has always seemed to play her (brilliantly) that way, always hinting at Sam's insecurities, neuroses, etc. Sorry if this was already discussed, but I just had to get it out there.