Talk:Seddie/@comment-3174862-20110206215926/@comment-4509465-20110206222447

Hey guys. I know this is not Seddie-related, but I just want to share something with you guys.

I used to be fat and chubby when I was younger, and people would make fun of me for it. But I honestly didn't care. I just ignored them. Over the years I've got thinner and skinnier, so I guess it was just baby fat or I'm just evening out.

Anyways, the SAME kids who would call me fat and make fun of my weight aren't so skinny anymore. Sure they were skinny when they were 7 but now, all that junk-food they eat is started to catch up with them. In fact, one of them is kinda overweight now, and is getting teased about it now.

I don't tease her. But at the same time, I don't feel sorry for her either. She put me through the exact same thing, and the worst part about it that even though I ignored her, she made me really self-conscious about my self. I always feel so fat and I hate to eat these days. I feel like throwing up my food sometimes, but I don't have an eating disorder nor do I want one.

This year, I stopped eating as much as I used to. Last year I would pig out on food a lot, and my friends would see that. They would even teases me about it, calling me "fat-a$#" and stuff. I laugh along, pretending like it doesn't bother me when it does. Now, I hate eating around people. My friends keep telling me to eat but I hate it. I just feel so fat and stuff. I always suck in my stomach so that it will look like I'm skinny. My stomach is pretty flat it's self now, but when I look in the mirror, I see someone who looks so fat and ugly.

So, can anyone help me with that? XP