User blog comment:Random Confessor/Anonymous Confessions/@comment-4654489-20111213035605/@comment-7889527-20111213210454

About your first thing, we all makes mistakes. The good thing is that you feel bad about it and want your friend to forgive you. Tell her about how you feel. About your second thing, your other friend, I am really sorry. I really am so sorry. I never experienced a loss before, but I feel so sorry for you. I have seen my family go through the pain of loss, my grandma lost TWO family members within a two months time. Her family members that passed were One of Her brothers and her dad, and both I never met. You could guess that was painful for her, and it still is. She still cries about it and that's okay. It's okay to cry about it. She is okay now, Actually right at this moment she's singing while cooking some food lol. So yeah, it does get better after a while:) Of course, we will still remember and cry,long after it happens, but that's fine.Your friend sounds like she or he was a great friend since you miss her this much. It's okay to keep thinking about her or him. Just remember it does get better. About your third thing, your mom. Maybe if you try telling her how you feel when she does this....I know it sounds corny, but You guys are her kids afterall. The kids do come first, maybe she'll think about how it bothers you. About your fourth thing, how you dont know what to believe, I totally know the feeling. It's like you want to look up at the God if we can and just ask plainly "WHYY" Just know he doesn't feel happy over what your going through and he hurts to see you like this. I used to wonder too why God let me go unhappy for months, and it does seem like it's for no reason:/ Like there's no end to this pain and suffering -___- :( My family ended up being in a rough position, and my dad felt like this too. Memeories memerories.:/ But we kept praying and something good did happen, the prayers were answererd:) Our lives went from being like a living hell to back where we needed it to be:)  And whatever we prayed for was answered. Sometimes, it works this way for others, but for me personally, I felt like you. Like for me it took so long to feel better, and it's like ARGHH LOL. But my life turned out better and I got back on my feet just as i prayed for, so he does pay attention, so dont feel bad:). I guess it's a way for one to be more stronger afterwards.I heard this from my mom, and read it somewhere. So yes, I understand how you feel big time. Others feel this way too, you'd be surprised. Now lastly, about your final thing, about how you feel like nobody cares about how you feel. I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW how you feel ahhh!!! I was just talking about this to my friend. it really gets to me so bad when my mom just assumes whatever i say is a big exaggeration, and when my grandma tells me to be quiet and that I don't know anything, and when my brother tells that I make up excuses, even after I try to explain myself. Just so they don't have to hear what I'm saying.  One time, i told my mom "Your really making me feel bad" and she just said in a sarcastic tone" Poor you" -__- I was so mad lol. It;s like, they dont understand. Well, just remember that this is normal too feel bad about and you just have to tell your friends to stop taking advantage of you, because that sounds like what their doing to me. Oh, and real friends will actually listen to you. I remember my then best friend knew I was smart and always doing my work, so she was once my partner during projects. But instead of working, she'd just talk with the other kids sitting next to her and not focus on anything while I would do it all. I didn't want her to be angry and start and argument, so I just ended up doing the work. I WAS the one who took the project home to finish AND I was the one who wrote the paper, AND I WAS THE ONE WHO GOT IT ALL DONE *pants out of breath* could ya tell I was having an angry flashback? haha XD and she just sat around chatting while I did all the work. I was so mad and I kept telling her to work and she's just like "Hold on" GAHH I was so stressed lol. And then she asked me the day the project was due if I did it. She was all like "You know it's due, I hope you did it!! Like it's all my responsiblity -__- so dont be down. She better be thankful that I did do the darn project SMH XD I Saved that chick from an getting an F on the project LOL Some people are just shallow. so you should let your friends know to stop taking advantage of ya. Feel better:)