Thread:CreddieCupcake/@comment-4542190-20120708185319/@comment-4542190-20120803200102

Hi Cupcake (again!)

I saw your reply before (they gave us permission to leave the camp for some hours one weekend one day-some picked Saturday, I and others picked Sunday, the house where I leave in is close so I could get online) but sadly, I didn't have time to reply.

Thank you so very much...:) I can't find any other words...

Well, I have much to tell you- I should have told you earlier but I wanted it to be more privately (on chat for example). Anyway..

I saw my kryptonite 2-3 times when she had exams in the university before I joined the army (I desperately needed it). The last time especially was very.."special".

Every time I wanted to see her, I had to wake up 5:00 am to catch up the suburban bus of 7:15 am. On that day, I kinda "overslept" and couldn't catch up that bus... I immediately called a radio cab (taxi)- which costs more than the normal one, to take me to the suburban station. I left with the 8:00-8:15 am bus. The exam she had was from 9 to 12 am. As you realize, I was deeply scared and afraid that I would miss her, I wouldn't arrive in time (students can leave the exam anytime after a quarter or half an hour has passed since the beginning). I prayed to God to not miss her, to see her... I didn't care for the money I spent or the trial I'd be through.. I needed to see her...

I arrived there, full of anxiety... I went outside (running of course) the amphitheaters that the subject she had exam on was and.. I couldn't see her anywhere... You can easily guess how sad, despaired and disheartened I was...

I was going back and forth, aimlessly.. I don't know why, I just did.. Just as the first tear rolled down my eye, something..unexpected happened. I saw her!!!!:D From outside the door (it has some sort of glass I think). I couldn't believe my eyes, I was so certain that I was too late...Only one word fits here: God. Period.

She wanted some papers from the secretariat and she was with another girl (fellow student) that's why she hadn't left yet- she was about to leave. She went up a staircase (she didn't see me), I ran after her, she noticed me, I stood there a bit staring at her and then squeezed her...

We talked about some things (some times we were alone, others we had company), including our emotional stuff. Among other things, I told her that she would be the perfect girlfriend- not just for me, for anyone that has a heart that needs to find love. And that she is a Platonic love of mine..

Afterwards, she went to a beach with others. The other girl I told you about brought me along. From what I saw, I'm 99,99% sure she has a boyfriend (a newer one, because she told me she had a relationship for 4 years and despite that she is the angel that she is, that guy treated her so badly...)

When it was time for me to leave with the suburban bus again (I had no place to stay so I should leave the same day) and say goodbye to the girls (there was also another fellow student of mine, the one you saw in the blog I made and that we graduated the same day), I asked if I could speak to her a bit privately.. She came..

I told her many things... That, despite I don't know her for a long time, she is one of the best things that has ever happened to me- if not THE best. And that I super-love her. She said "We love you too" (talking about the other girls etc). Then, I kinda confessed.. "I'm in deep trouble with you" (the good meaning). I also told her that I'm probably confused. She replied "No, we're friends" (not angrily, more in a caring manner). For "closure", I said "They say that, when you truly love someone, you want him/her to be happy, no matter what. I don't like big words and I told you, I think I'm confused, but get as happy as you can be". We said some more things after that.

Next time I see her in person (we talk from the phone due to the distance), I'm gonna say that I'm not confused. I don't think I ever was, to tell you the truth. Falling in love with her was more or less one-way for me... But I mean the above that I told her of course..

PS: It goes without saying that I'd do the same thing for her as Freddie did for Carly, without any second thoughts, any hesitations. It would just come out automatically.