User blog comment:Cartoonprincess/Vent Blog/@comment-3180503-20110727211852

Brace yourself, because I'm about to vent my little heart out xD:

Ugh. My mother has been getting on my nerves, lately. First of all, a few months ago, my mom took my phone away because she didn't like the fact that I was tweeting people I didn't know. So, when a friend texted me today, she got all excited and read the text before I did and was forcing me to call her. You see, she's angry because I've been socializing with *unknown* people all summer, and wants me to spend more time with *real* people. Don't get me wrong, I *know* that she's just trying to help because she cares about me, and part of me appreciates it, but I also feel like she's meddling, and it's like a constant reminder of how pathetic I am. :/

Lemme tell you the *whole *story: Throughout most of middle school, I was social, confident and even somewhat popular. However, halfway through 8th grade, my BFF and I had a falling out, and she left me for more popular people. This *really* took a toll on my self-esteem. You see, my BFF was always the one to push me to be more confident, social and outgoing, but without her, all that took a nose-dive. Afterward, I became *way* more shy and withdrawn, and secluded to the computer in my dark basement. I didn't bother to make friends becauseI figured they would either make fun of me or just not pay attention (like 3rd grade). Plus, I was paranoid that my BFF had everyone on *her* side, and therefore, that everyone would *hate* me. By the end of 9th grade, I lost *all* social abilities. My BFF and I eventually made up, but now she was going through major anxiety issues, and couldn't go back to school. She ended up being homeschooled. So, now there was no one to motivate me to be social and outgoing.

Which sort of brings us to the present.

As you all well know, I didn't initially join the wiki with the intention of making friends. I simply only wanted to express my opinion on Seddie/Creddie. But you guys supported and believed in me from the start; you guys accepted me for who I am, and took me in like family. From the first moment I came here, you guys made me feel right at home. :)

I used to lie about myself all the time, but this wiki has taught me to be more open and honest with people. My mom will never understand the connection I have with this wiki; sometimes I just need to get away from it all, you know? I just get emotionally attached *way* too easily..... x(