User blog:Blueefairyy/My Feelings On Sophie

You guys all are probably aware about Sophie's lie.... but what you probably don't know is that I was her best friend. Yes '''was. Let me tell you a little story, about what really '''happened, from my POV of course. I'm sure you have all been dying to know the truth behind all this...

Look, I apologize if this blog turns out really bad, I'm just.. not really good at writing these sorts of things >,<.

So first off, I did NOT know anything about this. At all.

Sophie was my '''best friend. I loved '''her, well as you do with friends. I trusted her, and I told her everything I was comfortable with telling her..

Yes, so people may say I'm an idiot, for doing that, because I think I'm an idiot myself! I was an idiot for trusting someone on the internet! I mean, (no offence to anyone on here) you know how our parents say "Never trust someone on the internet, blah.. blah... blah... So yes, I blame myself for being such a fool, for trusting her from day one... till the end... :/. I just thought...

I thought she was exactly like my best friend... the most sweetest, nicest, trustworthy person I could meet. She reminded me of my best friend. So I treated her with the loyal and respect, as I did with my best friend. I was ALWAYS there for her. I did everything I could to make her feel better.

But it just simply wasnt good enough.I wasnt good enough...

And I admit I was stupid and foolish to do so. And I did not try to replace Sophie with My best friend. At all... I just saw someone who was exactly like her, and befriended her. She made me so '''happy. '''And no I am not in love with her. lol. So don't think that.

It's just thinking of how Sophie betrayed me like this, makes me think how I feel if my best friend betrayed me. But then I remembered this, (thanks to Alica and Becky), Sophie was, and never will be my best friend. Because my best friend would never lie to me, hurt me, not like Sophie did. Our whole friendship was based on a '''lie. So therefore it meant nothing, it didnt matter, it was fake. Because if it really meant something to her, she would have told me the truth'''.. so I wouldnt of had to find out the hard way. And I wouldnt be so freaking furious... In fact, I would have been proud, so proud that she opened up to me that way... :/.

I really hope I don't seem selfish, or conseited, to any of you. Because I know she has hurt a lot of people... :/

I'm just so hurt.

And the fact that she lied about who she really was, isn't just it. It's a whole lot worse.

When I found out that she might die from a heart condition, I felt sorry for her because I didn't really know her very well, but then we got closer... and she kept saying things to me... telling me things... that made me want to just cry...I was soo freaking worried about her... My Best friend was going to '''die! '''Or so I thought....

And I remember when Alica and She had this big fight... and I believed every single freaking word she said, but they were all lies! She turned me against Alica, she made our friendship worse, because I was stupid enough to believe her... And I feel terrible so darn terrible. I'm an awful friend >_<.

I just trusted her so much....

On Tuesday.... the day we all found out... I found out the true side of her. She's evil and horrible, that is her true side. It may be hard to believe but it is true. If I have showed you the PM Sophie and I had, then you would understand... I don't want to sound like the bad guy here, I'm just trying to show you who she truly is...

She said the most horrible things that was enough to make me cry '''all night. '''

and this was before.. I found out the person who I thought she was, was a total lie... :/

If it hadn't of been for Slappy telling me all these things about her, Sophie would never have admitted the truth. As horrible as it sounds, Slappy and I had to force it out of her. :/

And I have to say.I have never felt so, betrayed, hurt and disappointed in my life.

I guess Maybe I was asking for it... but... I don't think I deserved for Sophie to treat me like that. She acts like she cares but she doesn't! Just as long as she has Mak and TenCents, she'll be fine.

She only tried once to make things right between us... Just shows how much She cares, huh?

I just seriously don't know how to feel anyone...I have forgiven her... because I felt like it was the right thing to do... but It will never be the same between us... I dont want to be hurt again, like that again :/

And yes I am disgusted that she made up that lie about her heart. And To be honest I feel sorry for her, I mean for someone to do that.... she just must be really troubled... :/.

But I'm '''done. I know who My real '''friends are.... :)

So, I would just like to thank, Alica, Becky, Slappy, Samlovesham, Cartoonprincess, Churchpants, SpencerFanGirl123 and Cherry for helping me get through this x). You guys are great friends.

And I'm just so sorry, to all the other people she has hurt... :/

Thank you for making time to read this blog... :/ I just really needed to get my feelings out.. I feel so much better.