User blog comment:SamBenson/SICK of this "leaving" crap!/@comment-4209592-20110902105630

There is a reason why I say I am leaving.

There is a reason why I make a big deal out of all of it.

You can call me an attentino seeker. In honesty that is true but it is a rude way to put it, actually.

This time I am not looking for sympathy, this time I was stating a fact that there were people on here that I didn't like. It wasn't the ship warring. It was the same people over and over again and I cannot handle that. As a girl that has been pushed around my entire life I will be adamant.

But the reason why people really write goodbye blogs, is because yes, they are looking for attention. But sometimes for me, it is because I have reached the last straw. It is because if people don't show some sort of emotion of sympathy and say that they want me around I may crack and I may do something really bad. I feel unloved every day of my life. i eat lunch sitting on the floor because I don't have any friends there. I am hurt by people very close to me. My best friend doesn't understand me. Sometimes I need someone to show care for me, and that is why I do it. It's pathetic, I know, but it's my life.

My recent blog wasn't entirely about leaving. It was about how stupid that fight was. It was about the fact that I was already leaving anyway because of school related reasons. It just made the leave most likely permanent.

In the end, after reading this blog, I felt no better about myself. I felt like I did when I wrote goodbye blogs, like nobody likes me because I can never do anything right.

Over-dramatic? Yes. I am over dramatic. I am over sensitive. It's actually a thing. I have a condition. HSPerson.com