Talk:Seddie/@comment-5185463-20130707054520

Hey guys idk if you remember me i kinda disappeared but i've missed you all! Since most of you are my friends here i was wondering if you guys could help me with a serious problem that i might be developing. This post is very serious and personal to me just warning you. If you dont wanna read this it's fine, but i feel like i need help so if anyone could give me advice that would be great. Well i think i could slowly be developing an eating disorder like anorexia. I've felt terrible about my body for a long time now and i lost alot of weight a few years ago. Close to 2 years ago i healthily lost around 40 pounds, and now i have a terrible fear of gaining it back or even a pound i just cant. I still am not happy about my body. I hate my legs so much and my arms and my stomach. I want all of the fat just to go away and fast. I'm starting to count calories alot more and i've always done alot of body checking like pushing on my stomach, pinching it, and lifting up my shirt to check to see if it looks any fatter than it did before. I do this probably every hour and i push on my stomach and pinch it when i dont even realize i do it, people even point it out to me. I'm trying to not eat over 1,000 calories a day but i am trying to eat healthy and vitamin rich foods because i am active in sports and i dont want to pass out while i'm playing basketball or something. I ate some cake tonight a cheeseburger some mac and cheese and potato salad at a picnic tonight and i feel insanely guilty about it and i am going to do zumba when i am done writing this. It takes over my head and i cant help it. I feel in control and not at the same time. I guess i'm not too fat but i feel like it. I just want to lose more weight and look skinny. I'm definetly not skinny and people say i'm not fat but i feel like i am so much. If you have anymore ?'s about this u can message me cause theres more to the story but i just need help right now so any advice? I really appreciate this so much and i love you guys, i'm just struggling right now with this problem.